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The Self



“It is crucial for evolution and development of oneself from oneself. All our focus should be on self, this allows one to become selfless and attain great heights. Till the time, one looks at others as a benchmark for development and evolution, one shall become self-centered and in that, selfishness seeps in allowing the ego to raise the head. This is a deadly combination, wherein, one shall be mentally, physically blocked leading to one’s own collapse.”

~ His Holiness Shri Maitreya Rudrabhayananda ji

‘I’ vs ‘WE’

“The day one realizes that “I am” because “We are”, then the ninety percent world problems vanish, it is only till the time the mind is related to ‘I’, ‘Me’ and ‘Myself’ that one wants to force others to lose so that they can win; when the consciousness expands to ‘We’ then all the concepts in life merges back into life itself making alive.”

~ His Holiness Maitreya Rudrabhayananda ji

Art of Meditation

Art of Meditation

Soul Searchers

Jai Gurudev
This time is too precious for me and people like me.
24-March-1996 was the day of origin of Soul Searchers at the banks of Yamuna in Agra. The Aghor Ratri wherein the star was Krithika, day was Sunday and eight people assembled in a Asta-Bhuja dhara and in that fire pit was lit wherein Param Pujya ParamGuru Swami Chidananda Bharati ji, Param Pujya ParamGuru Matang Baba ji, Prameshti-guru Ashiri Prajnaparamita Aghor Pinakin ji themselves did the fire ceremony and the Divine name of Soul Searchers emerged from the holy lips of His Holiness Maitreya Rudrabhayananda ji .
Nearly hundred people joined us on this day here for the meditation program as an offering at the feet of His Holiness.
Sadev Kripabhilashi
Melvitzk Glasow

Day of Joy and Blessings

Guruji with kids

Jai Gurudev
Is it possible to define a day or time or place of enlightenment for one who is born enlightened. We cannot claim a Sanyas diwas for an Atiashrami.
The divine bestowed the grand revelation of consciousness Isāprāgyacāitya, on this holy day in 1996 to His Holiness Maitreya Rudrabhayananda ji.
The expanse of this revelation is truly for this time and moment for it does not form any rituals or tradition no ceremonies and no special chanting. His holiness was bestowed this gift by a Supreme Master who was not present yet present to give permission.
The Divine spark played and played to give this vision and wisdom that can change the times to come. With holy prayers in my lips and an offering at His holy feet Parameshti-guru Ashiri Prajnaparamita Aghor Pinakin ji was always grateful for being a medium for His Holiness to witness His own creator.
It was a riddle, and a puzzle; for none knew the day, it was holy lips of Param Pujya ParamGuru Swami Chidananda Bharati ji who gave us this day to offer ourselves at the feet of His Holiness.
His Holiness too never recorded this day, not declared it, but it happened on this day in 1996. The beauty is the Divine creator since was not known by any name so His Holiness called the Divine Creator as Aghor MahaBaba Pinakadrika, The infinite expanse of Fire being shown by the grace of Parameshti-guru Ashiri Prajnaparamita Aghor Pinakin ji.
We celebrate this day and time.
In India I am not sure, only silence remains as always. Maybe silence is gratefulness and humbleness in India, for us who followed the ways of His Holiness know only grand celebrations for it is a moment to spread joy and happiness.
Sadev Kripabhilashi
Melvitzk Glasow

Lose Thyself in the Vision of the Lord

Lose Thyself in the Vision of the Lord, until then you are not alive.

What you seek and when you find it you understand the vastness that encompasses the name you know as God, then you actually realize how small you are in reality. The more you are able to see the vastness the more you lose your vision of yourself and then nothing of you remains. This is a stage of Fana or self denial.

Mein Rab ko Khoja har jagah

Mein rab ko paya har jagah

ansh bhar bhi na tha mein

rafta rafta mein kho gaya

(I looked for God every where,

I found him every where

I found not an iota of mine there

slowly slowly I was lost)

People often think that renunciation is self-denial. Self denial cannot be so complex. It is simple as if losing yourself in the name of God, this is true love.

There is an anecdote, which says that in a small village there was a mountain and for ages it was known as the mountain of mystery. Nobody knew why but those who climbed over the mountain used to smile and wave and go. None ever came back. One day the villagers did a unique thing. They asked a person to go on top of the mountain and before climbing the mountain they tied a rope on his waist. The moment he reached the top of the mountain he smiled and tried to cross over but as he was tied with a rope the villagers pulled him down. The person was still smiling and villagers asked him repeatedly what he had seen. The man just smiled in reply. This is true love. In simple terms, he connected with his heart and had seen the vision of God.

A person who has the realization only can truly smile. The smile is truly divine. You can see the difference in the glow of the face, you may ask him thousands of question but he will never be able to explain the feeling he has gone through. Die before Death is the true explanation. The day you die you merge with the divine. Death is not physical, not mental but you as an entity vanish. What remains is the divine. When this happens the soma-rasa or sura flows continuously. People talk about God as a form, as an entity but has someone who is alive seen God? No. Body may live, heart may beat but life shall not be there only the divinity is flowing there.

This may sound perplexing but it is true that your whole life is like a mask which you always consider to be true i.e. the body and the mind. This life is there for a specific period after which even the body also decays. This is the body known and seen and accepted. But that which you accept, should be true is not always the truth. Once you are able to move away from the body and mind, then death happens to the false life you accept as truth.

This is pure dying. This happens with giving at physical level, you derive pleasure from giving like when the mother feeds the child she derives pleasure of eating. This is pure art of dying, living life through others; this is the first step towards the spiritual development of dying. The more you are attached to things, more the pain you get. Give and share and then derive pleasure out of it, it will make life deeper.

Annihilation is a source of livelihood

Livelihood for life is death

Death is the source of Annihilation

Silence is the next stage. People feel that silence is keeping quiet for a long time. I have seen people being together for hours yet not one word being said. They feel they have shared much, still. Then there are people who feel that working or immersing oneself in electronic media like internet, email, telephone for hours, days and months is what makes up silence.

Can you call all this silence? It is nothing but satisfaction of ego, feeling a sense of elevation is all it does but love does not happen. Only a sense of fear and aversion happens. But then what is true silence? True silence is where you get to know the art of dying and yet have a smile on your lips. Knowing not what to say is divine if it comes from heart, the connection happens, otherwise every moment becomes a stressed out session.

See the same mother who derives pleasure in feeding the child, feels pain when the child grows up and ignores the aged mother. The mother feels the pain yet she becomes the epitomy of forgiveness with the attitude of relieving her son/daughter of mental and physical sufferings without any expectations rather than expecting that others should relieve her pain. This is situation of pure silence where the feeling of oneness happens from within but there is no want or desire.

Now, finally the third stage happens where a mureed or a disciple loses everything to the divine. In this loss he actually he gains. In the guise of an apparent loss, perfection is gained. That is why as much as one effaces oneself, one proceeds that much further in the spiritual journey. It is not so difficult as it appears, yet it is difficult if one has not found the way to it. It is an attainment which is gained by someone who is firm and steady, sympathetic and self-effacing, for the whole process of the spiritual attainment is in losing the false ego for the highest gain.


Atma Sanchaya Dhwani, Volume 1 Issue 13, 1st Nov, 2006

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